Do you ever have those days where your mind just runs, and runs, and runs.....just like this sentence? Lately I keep having those days, and they are not stopping! Such a overload. Maybe putting it on paper (my computer screen) will help me out.
The school year is ending
REALLY soon! The kids just finished up their 3rd term. Where has this school year gone?
How many summer activities are my kids going to be in? I have always felt that if they are busy, it keeps them out of trouble. I think I am in trouble though. I feel like I am running 24/7 everywhere and summer will be even busier. What have I done?:)
When the kids go back to school in the fall, where will that leave me? I think I am going to lose part of my identity. I have really enjoyed staying at home with my kids, but I am getting to that point where I would like to interact with other people. I loved working before I had kids. It was mainly the social part of it. Plus the money. Who am I kidding? It was only about the social part and money!! I love my mornings with Oakley where it is just the two of us, but she will be in 1st grade next year. Who's kid can I hang out with??? J/k That sounds a little weird.
There are no more little's in our future, buy I wonder if I would like babysitting? Or do I need to get out and work with adults?
What about the times that I need to be home? Can I find a job that allows me a 9-4 during the week with the summer off?
How do you deal with people who mean well, but can drive you up the wall? I try to be a open book, a tell it like it is person. Sometimes I have a hard time doing that to the ones I love. Sometimes I want to say "You put yourself in this position. Why do I have to bail you out over and over?" Who is the adult here??? And what about respecting your elders? For the love! Make it easy!!!
To finish the basement or paint the outside of the house. That is the question my friends. One tiny budget. Two big projects. Hmmm.......
Where is Spring?
Should I put my little into a summer school program so that she can do well in 1st grade? She really, really, really, does not like to do homework with me. She is a little behind some of the kids in her class. I know Kindergarten is the foundation for learning, and she needs some help. I feel like I am failing her when it comes to her schooling.
There are many more thoughts, but I think that will do for now. I don't want my kids to look back at this and think "What the crap was wrong with her?"
(Yes Mom, if you are reading this I put "crap" in my journal. Yes Mom. I know you hate that word. Yes, I know I have a construction workers mouth. Blame it on dad:)