I have a friend who I will not name....but I will say she is known as one of the Em's. She has gone through alot these last few months. In her blogs she is brutally honest. She puts it all out there for us to read. Sometimes she might feel like she is going to be judged by her brutally honest posts, but I love her for them! I think all too often we think as women, mothers, wives, religious women, that we need to be great at everything we do. There is no room for failure, right? Blah!
So here is my dirty laundry for all of you to read. Laugh at it, judge me, think I am nuts.... I don't care!!:) I need to free myself and just let it all out!!
1. I workout in the early morning and then come home and go back to bed.
2. I miss my hubby pretty bad on this trip of his to Vegas, and it is taking everything I have to not drive down early to be with him. (We get to go on Friday to meet up with him, but I want to go NOW!)
3. I hate to clean with a passion. If I know you are coming over, I run around the house picking up like crazy!
4. Sometimes I eat nachos in bed while waiting for Matt to call me. Even though I have told myself not to eat anything past 7 p.m.
5. I often take on more than I should.
6. I don't know how to say "No" when I already have a million things going on. "Sure I will make those cupcakes. 60? No problem!"
7. I tell myself that my kids need alot of sleep and that it is o.k. that they start to get ready for bed at 8 p.m. Really I just want a hour to myself.
8. My bedroom is the biggest mess! I have bags of clothes for D.I. sitting around, crafts not finished, shoes all over.
9. I in the past have crash dieted for big things. Weddings, family pictures, vacations.
10. I can talk a ton. Ask any of my friends or neighbors. Put me in Sharing Time with the kids in Primary, and I freeze! I also don't do talks or prayers any better. Yesterday I had to say the prayer at church and I literally "prepared" my prayer. Yes, I practiced all of the 3 things that I said before I went up there.
11. I do pretty good with Matt being gone. In the sense that our house stays in order. The kids needs are taken care of. But I miss him like crazy! He completes me in so many ways that I miss seeing him drive up and spending the evenings with him.
12. I go tanning.
Thanks. I feel much better:)